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2007-02-28T21:38:00.001+08:00

i m feeling like a moron. an asshole. a bastard. a mofo.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

worked at 9 today.
as usual chinese yu sheng -____-
manage to go home early today.
haha
left hse at 6 plus.
went to mac to have a hot tea and read my book.
not comic or anything.
i m really reading.
been interested in wines and stuff.
so i BOUGHT a wine booke.
haha.
getting a crumpler bag tml i guess.

i m feeling fucked up.
you don have to thank me.
i have to thank you for making me feel like a moron once again.
yes, i have not gotten over you.
but doesnt quite matter now.
back to my old regular life.
shall become a workaholic once again.
working from morning to midnight tml.
ONG is right.
he says that its such a waste i have no girlfriend.
LOL.
not this line.
but the line atfter.
you buey steady de lor.(note that i hate ppl saying this to me.LOL)
no girlfriend don wan stay behind and help.
haha.
might be jumping over sentosa.
haha.
running both sides i guess.
sick of chinese/western dinner/lunch
and most of all coffeebreaks.
haha.
james is right oso.
maybe i just don understand girls?
hmm..
i guess so.

i work hard for wad i want.
thats something you have to respect me abt.

just a few songs to recommend and how i m feeling now.
1) chris daughty - its not over.
2)evanescence - lithium
and lastly the band MUSE.

Random

2007-02-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG IS BACK ALIVE!

2007-02-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

finally blogged.
haha.
this blog isnt abandon.
cuz i m sitting in front of my com doing nothing but drinking some liqour.
been drinking quite alot lately.
makes me feel abit seh in the day oso.
haha.
work as usual.
been pretty lazy to work.
guess i need a change in enviroment again.
might be going sentosa to work.
haha.
i got a list of to be done and things to get.
1) a new bank account.(to keep all my si fang qian(privately kept money), so that i will have money to pay for deposit for a new car when i m 18 and to keep some savings.)
2) a new watch.(cause my watch sucks totally.)
3) making sure she stays happy?( not elaborating on this)
4) new specs.(cause mine looks so stupid)
5) car license(need i say more)
6) a new car.
7) that special someone.(everyone needs company-__-)
8) alcohol, alcohol and more alcohol.
9) definitely more clothes?(not quite on my list)

i think this should be about it.
LOL =)
new list will be up pretty soon i think.
ahaha.

2006-12-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for the past few days.
Lazy-ness.
haha.
Days have been pretty normal.
Pretty boring.
Luckily there is television.
PHEW!

Goin for interview on tue.
Getting my hair dyed back later.
LOL.

Met up with some primary school friends and played soccer.
for a long long long time.
-______-
I sucked alot.
Haven been exercising for months.
haha.
Everyone seems to be going JC.
hais.
Primary school friends do rock alot.
WOOO!!!!!
Had fun.
But very tiring for an old man like me.
i slept for like 13 hours after i reach home.
HAHA.

Went to Aunt hse today to have some reunion or some sort.
just as usual.
nth much really.
other than the food part.
haha.
I m bored.
PEOPLE PLEASE TALK TO ME.
HAHA.

2006-12-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for days.
Having problems loading to Blogger page.
Hmm.
This few days have been boring.
As usual.

Sorry buddy.
I really hope u will understand.
As usual commitment.
A big problem of me.
Went job hunting with Lemuel today.
Den an old friend came over.
haha.
Still the best male friend i have ever had.
JUSTIN CHANG GUO HUI.
The man with the disgusting middle finger.
hahahaha.
Have been listening to metal songs recently.
Cleared most many songs in my library.
My music library have officially got no chinese songs.
So do not ask chinese song from me.
hahaha.

2006-12-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

WAD A DAY!
finally went out after staying at home for a few days.
haha.
More and more unable to chiong.
haha.
Went to play pool with my cousin.
I kept losing.
haha.
Wonder why.
i m nt bad.
its just that he is better.
haha.
Can't blame.
LOL.

2006-12-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

FARKED UP LIFE!

Nth much i can pretty do abt it.
haha.
but hoping that things would get better.
i pretty much lost everything i long for.
But at least i got new goals in life. =)
I need money to achieve it.
estimated amount of money i need to get all my things i need.
= $3000+ + +
Have to pay for my own tertiary education.
Unlike other rich asses out there.
Have to learn to be independent.
i need a labtop oso.
my com CMI.
clothes and lessons.
i guess i would be satisfied after i get all this.
But who's satisfied with the things they have???
hmm.
i wonder...

2006-12-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT GOING RIGHT!
Argh!

Have not been in good terms with my parents recently.
I really need a job.( i have been saying this for days)
Hopefully RTC or RSH

3 songs i would like to recommend u ppl.
1. Tenacious D - Tribute
2. Seether ft. Amy lee - Broken
3. Foo Fighters - Best of you

Have been listening to this few songs recently.
Lots of things i need to get.
I need to :
-Get a guitar
-Guitar lessons ( anyone interested??)
-A pair of tapered jeans
-Vans slip on
-A few Tees
and obviously the last few is for Chinese New Year.
-________________-
Give me MONEY!
I don't mind donations.
hahaha.

2006-12-12T19:51:00.000+08:00

Wad a day.
Went job hunting again.
Went vivo den just walking aimlessly with Lemuel.
can't even find the damn HR of the hotels. -_______-
How i hope RSH would call me up.
Going RTC for interview.
Hopefully i would get a job there.
I need a job so that i can start my guitar lessons.
ARGH!

and ahTAN yes i know that.
Thanks alot. =)
I dunno wad u trying to do but good try.
=)

i have been thinking alot recently.
yes i m very self consious.
But i began wondering about lots of things.
There are lots of people walking pass you everyday.
Different kinds of looks the people gives you when they look at you.
I m wondering what people are thinking when they look at me.
hmm..
i know it wont be of anything good.
but i wonder how bad it is?
many thoughts just came to my mind:
"wad an ugly guy"
"wad a short ass"
But there is nth much one can do.
hmm.
Thoughts just keep running into my head.

i realise life is just preparation to death.
people are just on a queue to death.
everyone is just waiting to die off.
the unlucky ones have to queue up again
and of course they get a longer life span.
well that makes people who commits suicide be cutting queue.
which brings them of even no good.
so it makes cutting queue a rather big sin?
i guess the more u fear a thing the more its going to happen.

rather emo post isn't it.
LOL!
all the stupid thoughts of mine.

2006-12-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

I NEED A JOB BADLY!!!
ANYONE GOT ANY JOB PLEASE INTRODUCE ME!!!!!!!

2006-12-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

Yet another bored day.
ARGH!
Stayed at home today.
Wanted to look for job.
But i need company.
haha.
Wanted to share some videos but there is some error with the html thingy.
saddedddddd=(((
haha.

PEOPLE PLEASE LINK ME!!!

2006-12-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

Wad a boring day.
hmm.
i guess my life have always been so boring.
haha.
Talked to IMAI for the first time, early in the MORNING
and thanks Haslinda for your help eh.
I m so freaking jealous now.
Leslie bought a new bass guitar and hao lian to me.
haha.
wad an ass.
Been thinking abt lots of stuffs today.
My new goal in life have made me think more abt my life than ever before.
haha.
I just cant wait to reach it.
YEAH MAN!
haha.

PEOPLE PLEASE COME AND TALK TO ME!
I CAN'T CATCH UP WITH EVERYONE.
BUT I WILL TRY TO DO SO. =))

Lao ban my birthday present the shirt print all kena wash away by washing machine.
haha.
so sorry. =(((

2006-12-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

I just realise i do look crappy during prom.
haha.
I do feel so.
I have a bad feeling earlier the day.

Today went rather well.
Slept for 10 hrs and i dun tink its enough.
Woke up only after my dear bolster rolled away.
ARGH!
haha.
Went to find some friends who were working.
haha.
Den went to take a look at guitarsssssssss.
haha.
i wan to master 12 string guitar.
haha.
Now i m in need of finding a guitar teacher.
I m desperate.
haha.

I dont feel as sad as i thought i would be.
But who cares.
Why should i even bother.

Tired...

2006-12-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

Back from chalet finally.
Things when on rather smoothly.
But there were too little food.
It was rather last min.
There were like gaming session in the room for like 24 hrs.
LOL!
Nv sleep.
Last man left standing.

Went off from chalet in the morning due to prom in the evening.
Headed down to Wilfred hse borrow clothes but i wore non. -___-
Still i couldnt get my sleep.
Got back home iron clothes and left hse again.
Went Leslie place.
Played with his eye-liner and decided wad to wear.
Den went to meet a hot babe at raffles city.
Thankfully, she didnt have to work till 8.
Went prom with her together.
She is SUPER HOT!!!
hahaa.

Lots of fun games and activities.
Prom was great.
Enjoyed myself grinding Leslie and Kelvin violently.
LOL.
pictures will be uploaded later.
haha.
really lazy, need to get some sleep.
42 hrs straight without rest
and with prom i conclude that most CCKsians cannot dance.
Haha.
was simplying gaying around and taking photos the entire eveing.
Me, Leslie, Chong Guo and Kelvin walked all the way from RTC to Cineleisure.
Haha.
Didnt know it was that long.
Missed last bus, slacked around and went back home.
I think they are together.
Just hope that she would be happy. Thats all. =)
Gotta go catch some sleep.
Too tired till i could sleep standing.

2006-12-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

OFF TO CHALET!
will be back tml.

My New Blog Up!!! =)))

2006-12-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

Yes i m starting a blog yet again. Haha.

Wonder if i can commit to keeping one.

But i will try. =))

and do link me.